Through all this I have learned who my true friends are. They are the ones that can look at me, broken and shattered and love me anyway. They are the ones that let me feel this, they don't try to take it away from me, they know they can't, but they feel it with me. They loved Jouke and miss him, too. They talk about him. They cry with me.
I heard this song a few weeks ago and it speaks of just what I am writing about now.
Thanks for those who are willing to share the dark. I love you!